da dum da dum da dum!

i am super duper excited!

5 march can you come no faster. haha:)
whowhowhowhowho!

da dum da dum da dum!

the frog on the bus - 100

my phone is still not with me. somehow, i really don't mind at all.

i went grocery shopping today! haha ok i looked for apples, like, alone for the first time ever. had to walk two rounds to find the basket. and then i wasn't sure if i should just go to the cashier but we all learn! haha. i spent super long picking the apples that were pink/red/not dirty/not soft/etc. i think i picked right. haha. and just as i was finishing the guy came with new stock and i was like OH NO i must get the best apples there are! (yes i know very odd personal achievements) so i relooked the apples for another five min before i got tired of it. it's wonderful how all the aunties help each other out. ok i'm so kampung at heart man. that's why i like this, and that's why everytime i go to bedok i get so glad seeing how it's so, community and all :)

i wanna make apple pudding! ok that's the only pudding i know how to make.

am still sick so no netball for me tomorrow. madhu's very pissed cuz i refused to see the doctor and have been blowing my nose like crazy the past three days. i'm very tired of it. and my nose it starting to peel. and my throat hurts even though i've been sucking lozenges like i own a factory full of them.

and i have so much work to do. i'm not even bothering.
HOW this is so a levels man SHIT.


and the previous post. i didn't mean that smart people suck. please i love roshni;) i just meant that i don't think i'll ever be able to isolate myself and read up all these thick, cheem books most of my time and just let life pass me by.

but i thought about it. when i'm older and i want to change career i have other options now! besides teaching la. i want to..be a librarian! or journalist. or actually. if i can. i'd really really like to own my own bookstore. one of those cosy kinds, that gets me enough business to survive, but no big thing that keeps me at business all the time. i want to read daily in my own cosy shop and live with my friends, my books, my coffee.


oh yeah.

aren't we confused

was talking to a very smart, very very smart and brilliant guy today. he knows a lot, broadly as well as in depth. about so many different things, from many perspectives, from many ages.

and then it occurred to me. so what? so what if you know so much, and you know everything, and you absorb and retain information like einstein probably did?

what's the point of it all.

don't get me wrong. i am appreciative and very impressed with brilliance and people who have abundance of knowledge. but then, at the cost of what? what's the point of knowing the mysteries of life when you don't live and appreciate the beauty of it for yourself?



live for yourself, live for others. your life isn't only yours after all:)


still pretty sick. hope it goes away ASAP. and i realised not having my phone is very liberating. i have no one to account to, no reason to, no care to.
:)


very funny project meeting today. i'm telling you. they stole the tap furnishings and all 7 jumped into the jacuzzi together. of course it'd break.
and honestly, darling. nobody wears pearl earrings at that age.

Life without T

and U and V. the 8TUV key on my handphone is, non functioning. what perfect timing, seeing how i can't service it like i've been telling myself to, as has madhu, since it's chinese new year and all. my msgs are WEIRD now, with yoos and can'ds and the like. saks man. i am almost jealos of de people who can dype yoosing dheir yoos and wees and dees.

yep, something like that.

in other news, happy valentine's day! ok a belated one. haha:)

OK YAY i just finished something i have been postponing to FOREVER for. and it's like TGIF and then a week of holidays booooyeah! i am going to hit the shops come wednesday, and not cuz i'm some sorta shopaholic addict shopping crazed maniac, but cuz i haven't gone in forever and a day.

please also remind me that i better start studying because i have midterms the week after and my marketing and ss and psych book is still pretty and untouched and unwrapped even. i have no idea what i've been so busy with this week but i HAVE to make sure there are fewer late/forever in school days. two hours journeys are no joke man.

everyone watch parental guidance on thursdays at 830pm. if u can, record it too, cuz i have FREAKING LESSON till 8pm and can't get home in time for it. hey i LIKE the show okkkk! :P

ok i better change my phone. geez. hate technology sometimes.




HEY all you ahs kids who may be reading this. you are loved, and you are missed tons! :)

hey the rest of you reading this - yeah man i can't believe it either. i used to hate kids. but ahs has taught me i dislike younger kids. you know, the scary kind who bawl and wail and scream and throw tantrums and run around yelling and crying and that kind of thing. and the ahs kids rock. (yes, despite the mountain they live on. haha)

happy chinese new year folks! may you be blessed with good health and prosperity and may you bless me with lots of sweets and chocolates and other traditional cny food! ;)

we rise, we fall

it's been a different sort of week alright.

there's french, as usual, with nicolas and his out of the box views. and how right he is too. 'the meaning of life is what you want it to be' and 'i'm glad that when i was in uni nobody cared about anything at all. and that helped me take a step back from everything, be detached. and that's why i know that even if one way doesn't work out for you, others will.' briliant man, that one. a bit, well, off. but brilliant nonetheless:)

and then there's the book i picked up and am horrified is still allowed publication in singapore. or distribution. isn't singapore somewhere in china, luv? talk about encouraging brain drain. but how right that was too. we really are turning into one of those mega cities where people stop caring about others. it's all a rush and no surprise too, seeing how everything seems increasingly about career, cash, the other 3Cs. i already feel it, and i haven't even ventured properly into the working world. i just want to work, and enjoy my work, and stay sane. is that too much to ask for? i don't want to work and keep working because my life is empty otherwise, and man everyone should read the book. even if i don't think it's so well written.

last episode ever of PCK. okay so i didn't catch even one episode this season, and maybe a few more, but wow it's over. funny how you grow up with the seasons.

cycling. we all learn the hard way, but falling less and less. and just before we can cycle ourselves, we tell ourselves we can't. for me, dad said he'd hold on to the bike and make sure i don't fall, and it was only when i turned back that i realised i was moving on my own, successfully.

you see, it was all in the mind.

the french, if they are anything like nicolas, are amazing. he really puts the world into a different perspective. the way he looks at the small things everyone else overlooks, and the way he sees reason in the hardest of things:)



next week is going to be hard. when am i ever going to meet you?

if i let you go

it's one of those days where there's a lot on my mind, but i don't really feel like typing anything out.

i take back whatever i said earlier. i'm not disappointed with anyone or anything. it was just one of those days, but i'm very clear about what went wrong. it's all, well, much better now:)

i'm back to the routine. you know, slacking and procrastinating. so much for me telling my students the value of hard, consistent, diligent work. i HAVE to do something about this soon man. bleagh.


Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone too soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity


ah, but how i'd like to be peter pan,
or in neverneverland.


"because i don't think my soulmate has to be the one i love."